Tuesday, May 26, 2009

LC Day 86 - Post Holiday Weekend full-o-bbq's!

HOT DOG! (low carb, of course)

I got on the scale this morning and saw a 269.8 staring back at me. I'm booking it! I DON'T CARE THAT IT'S NOT MY WEIGH IN DAY!!! This is after a couple of tumultuous weeks with serious workout soreness, prescription water pill changes and some not so great food choices. Oh yeah...I'm booking it cuz I SAID SO!

I had a BBQ every single night this weekend. I had food police on my ass Saturday AND Sunday, so only a couple minor infractions that I heard about every chance they got to chastise me. Crimony! It was 10 Doritos...sheesh! 4 months ago, it would have been the whole bag! Yesterday I took a couple of nibbles of non-Atkins things at the third bbq but kept the portions so small that I feel ok with the choices. (tablespoon of baked beans, tablespoon of Spanish rice, a hot dog, about 2 oz's of chicken, salad with dressing, ONE cracker with cheese and salami...no desert...not bad!)

My keto stix are understandably lighter than usual. I don't care what anyone else says, my personal feeling is you have to find a way to fit this in your life in a way that doesn't make you feel deprived. I didn't feel deprived...I didn't feel out of control...I didn't feel ashamed. It's my body...and if I feel like eating a handful of Doritos, then I will...and if I suffer consequences, I have to deal with the fact it was a choice I made.

I’ve started my day with a hearty breakfast bowl sans potatoes from Jack in the Box today... 6 grams of carb but great in a pinch! I was starving and have nothing prepped in my kitchen because of the busy weekend. Shame on me! Dinner tonight SHOULD have been chicken cuz I have some defrosted in my fridge, but I just got asked out on a coffee date that is gonna wreck that plan. CRUD! I’ll have to think of something to cook up when I get home that I can store for leftover-lunches for the week. I pulled a bunch of miscellaneous ingredients out of the fridge for lunch...snort...we’ll see how well that works out. LOL I believe my lunch sack includes roasted turkey, sliced cheese, celery (but forgot cream cheese...nice), mayo and some salami. Maybe I'll go out for lunch. LOL

Hopefully tomorrow I’ll be more prepared for this week!

I had two AMAZING workouts this weekend. One was with my trainer...who I told I had no pain from our first workout...so she stepped it up ten notches. I think I’m in love. Sunday morning I woke up and could hardly roll over in bed...felt every freakin muscle in my abdomen. FABULOUS! Pain or not, I still went to the gym and did laps in the pool...I have no idea how long but I think 20 minutes worth...coulda been more. I can’t wait to go back. I’m extremely proud of the work I did this weekend. I’m so happy to find things that actually WORK for me! I was supposed to work out again tonight with the trainer, but forgot that I had a conflicting physical therapy appointment. My next appointment is set for Friday night! I gotta get in there between now and then and get some cardio in. I’m so pumped right now!

Thursday, May 21, 2009

LC Day 81

Doing best I can. Water pills still causing issues but today I took two of the old ones just to try to shed a little fluid...this morning I was at 275.something...blech.

I'm eating fine...ketosis is fine...I'm uncomfortable with all the excess fluid but it's not as bad as earlier in the week. I’m in less joint pain than before.

I worked out with my trainer last night and it was AWESOME. I thought I'd be sore as hell today but I'm not....not sure why, but can't wait for my next session. It was the kind of training I've always wanted but never got...kinda like a Jillian Michaels session where she pushes you to the edge, but she worked within my physical limitations. I wanted to cry at the end because I was so happy...I would never work MYSELF in the same way or as long as she did...it was perfect.

Speaking of physical limitations....yesterday was the 7th anniversary of the surgery that left me paralyzed. Not a great day for celebrating...but I've come a long way and am proud. The sad news is they say you only regain functionality in the first 7 years....I'm hoping to be the exception to that rule. LOL

Food the last few days has been fine...nothing extravagant. I did go to red robin and for the first time had a lettuce wrapped burger...DUDE...they are serious with the lettuce wrap! I was expecting a little romaine leaf wrapped around the thing...instead I swear it was ¼ head of iceberg....that was pretty good. I’d do it at home! Today it’s looking like salami for breakfast (I was in a huge hurry...busy busy work day!), turkey/bacon/cheddar and lettuce sandwiches for lunch and taco salad for dinner. I’m having a BBQ this weekend with friends, one of which I recently converted to this WOE....so we will be able to support each other. BBQ’s are easy for me since I hate potato and macaroni salad anyway.
*sigh*...wish I was melting...maybe after a day of the strong water pills I’ll see a loss....but it will only be temporary cuz I have to go back on the potassium sparing ones. We’ll see tomorrow.

Monday, May 18, 2009

LC Day 78

Back at work after a lovely weekend. Weather was fabulous...too bad I stayed inside almost the whole time.

I went in for my "personal training" on saturday, only to have my trainer not show up. Wow...that was annoying. I put in 20 minutes on a treadmill and then left to return to the torn up house I left behind. I've reconfigured a couple of rooms...gotten rid of some stuff (well...moved to the garage for now, anyway) and am gearing up to do some painting in my next time off days (which may be next week). I'm not entirely sure what my next steps are as far as selling. I guess I can try for a roommate first...try to get by with that and hope the market comes back around. The only problem is that I feel like my home is an anchor when it comes to finding a new job. Everything that earns any kind of money is going to be 50+ miles north of where I live...in horrendous traffic, which is just not my idea of living a good life. I don't know what to do...but no matter what my decision, I'm taking the right steps by cleaning/painting/prepping now.

Food went great this weekend...but I'm up 2 pounds. I started a new water pill that doesn't work QUITE as well as the old...so hopefully this 2 pound upper is my "new baseline" and I won't go up any further from there...we'll see. The new pill is supposed to resolve the massive potassium issues I've been having...but clearly it's coming at a cost of not working as well. I think it also made me have "tummy troubles" yesterday...I felt like crud! I walked around Costco and Best Buy and then when I got home just felt like I needed a nap. What an exhausting day. Poor tummy...had some pretty bad "issues".

I've been burning ketones....which is really good. Seeing my pee stick turn purple actually saved me from a binge the other day...just feeling like crud, wanting comfort food, wanting an escape and not feeling like the eating was going well caught me in a bad spiral that actually stopped with seeing the ketones. Thank goodness I spend money on those stupid little sticks. LOL My Costco shopping trip could have gone in a completely different direction! Really....what does a single woman need with a sheet cake and a vat of cookies? Instead I now own a lifetime supply of romaine lettuce and alfredo sauce...

I'm feeling the "urge" to look for love again...because I've been "oh so successful" with this in the past (please note the sarcasm)...so....I need some tips. I'm getting too old for the bar scene. Yahoo personals was a complete waste of money last time...guys don't hit on me in the grocery store or the gym (I'm fairly certain my crutch is kryptonite) and I don't go to church...so what other options are there to find someone? I truly believe I make a great girlfriend...but chemistry is very important to me...and for some reason it doesn't matter as much to others so I usually end up on the dumping end of things. I hate dating...but I want someone special in my life...I feel like it's time. What to do???

Wednesday, May 13, 2009

LC Day 73

Man-o-man...yesterday was a rotten day at work. My last "dear friend" was laid off and it came as a complete shock to her. It's hard to understand sometimes how they choose who get's let go. I learned that we will all know our fate by June 30th...so there is an end in site. The worst part of this is not knowing. I've been toying with getting my house on the market...but what if I DON'T lose my job and now I've sold my house? I just don't know what to do...can't wait till I have some direction.

I took her out to lunch after her meeting and fully intended on ordering lots of deep fat fried carbs to drown our sorrows, followed by a mountain high mud pie for desert...but when I sat down to the menu, it just didn't sound worth it, and I ended up getting the chicken caesar with no croutons that I always get at that place. It was a right choice.

After work I did a quick grocery store run to pick up some produce and a few essentials that I was out of. Fortunately for me...I have this rediculous "stockpiling" mentality so my freezer is still very full of meats. I then rushed to pick up my dog, and rushed home to unload groceries with 5 minutes to spare before the neighborhood watch meeting...consequently, I didn't eat enough yesterday. I only had time to grab about 3 slices of salami and a pickle for dinner. Yeah...that's it. At least my caesar salad from lunch kept me going all day long.

Today's food plan is my mini-egg and sausage micro-scramble for breakfast (mmm...it was tasty) mockaroni and cheese for lunch (with 2carbs worth of beef hot dogs), celery and cream cheese for snacks, and dinner will be something with ground beef...cuz I have some sitting in the fridge. Not sure what though...we'll see.

I actually got on the scale this morning to see the damage, and it's not near as bad as it could have been...I'm actually quite impressed. I'm at 274.6...so up 3.6 from 5 days in Las vegas. I might be able to get back to my low within a couple of weeks (assuming a lot of this is still water). My ankles are starting to look better, but have a way to go. I'll check for ketosis later today, but I'm sure it's too soon.

I don't yet have the energy to do a real workout...but I have physical therapy today, and he usually makes me sweat a bit. I'm still re-adjusting to my work schedule...I sure did not want to get out of bed this morning! Am looking forward to ketosis just to get some energy back!

Tuesday, May 12, 2009

LC Day 72 v1.5

I'm home! I'm not rich...but I didn't go broke either, so that's great! I left with 400 cash, came home with 200 cash, and only put about 60 or so on my credit card for meals, drinks and a t-shirt...not bad for 5 days in Vegas.

I don't wanna discuss the food though. :(

But...I'm doing my best to get back on track today...even though I have NOTHING prepared to get started, so it's already a challenge. I stopped and got a fast-food egg thing for breakfast, am planning lunch out for chicken Caesar salad and then probably a couple burger patty's with cheese at home for dinner. Maybe my bacon will be defrosted by then...we'll see. I gotta get to the grocery store! I got in at midnight last night, didn't get to bed till after 2am and had to be at work by 9 today...oy! I'm soooooo tired!

I'm not going to weigh for a while...I don't know how long, but I have a whole host of reasons. First...there are my "Vegas indiscretions"..which honestly, while carby...weren't THAT bad in all seriousness (not ONE buffet!). By day 4 I was still fitting into my new jeans I picked up a couple days before leaving, which shocked the hell outa me. However, due to heat and added carbs, the swelling in my legs is horrid right now...so reason 2 for not weighing for a while. Third reason is that I'm HYPED UP to start working out hard with a personal trainer this week...which means added weight from muscle building...don't wanna see that number. And reason 4 is that I'm switching water pills. I'm having a ridiculous time controlling my potassium on my current pill so my doc is switching me to one that is supposed to INCREASE potassium levels. The switch could mean trouble with more water gain while I get used to it. Yeah...the scale will not be my friend for a while! So my plan is to get on track...get into ketosis...and get on the scale again when I feel like I can handle it. I was 271 when I left town...next stop, 270!

I'm sooooo excited to get back on track. I'm even more excited that I didn't come back broke so I can afford to buy some personal training sessions...can't WAIT to get that started.

My trip was so much fun...the weather was outstanding, the concerts were fantastic, the Zumanity show was amazing, and I didn't lose my shirt! I had a wonderful time! I'm glad to be back home!

Tuesday, May 5, 2009

LC Day 65

Dinner last night was sooooo yummy that I can't WAIT for lunch today as I'm having leftovers. I made a ground beef and broccoli casserole....OMG...it was soooo totally comfort foodish! MMMMMmmm...honestly, the only thing I would have done different was add a smidge more broccoli. I did one pound of beef and about 3/4 of a bag of frozen broccoli...next time I think I'll do 1.5 bags...seemed like it needed more, and that would stretch it out farther, too.

Inspiration for last nights dinner came from here:

http://www.genaw.com/lowcarb/hamburger_broccoli_alfredo_casserole.html

but I used a prepared alfredo sauce from Costco and I browned the meet in a little Worcestershire, and garlic and onions. I added a touch of jack and parm cheeses on top.

As I get closer to leaving town, the offerings in my fridge are getting more and more sparse...lol...but still have tons of cheese! :\ I guess I'll break out the vacuum sealer and get-a-suckin.

I'm not going to make it to the gym before I leave town...just aint gonna happen. I have a friend coming over after work and once he leaves I gotta finalize my packing because tomorrow I gotta be in bed by 7pm! Yeah...ewe. I'm not sweatin the whole gym thing though...I gotta tell ya, my hips have been pain free going into 3 days right now! I'm not sure what to do with myself. I usually have pain every step I take...right now I have NOTHING at all...it's been so incredible! I wish I knew my secret!

My friend at work says it's because I know I'm about to go on vacation. If I stay pain free through vacation...wow...that will be a trip!

Monday, May 4, 2009

LC Day 64

Weekend was rough for me...I battled hunger/cravings on Saturday and Sunday I gave in during one meal....but only one meal and it wasn't as horrid as it could have been (corn chips at a Mexican restaurant...but main dish was still only a taco salad, which wasn't NEAR as good as the one I make myself). I'm sure it knocked me out of ketosis though. My weight was up all weekend, even prior to my "indiscretion" last night...has been at 273.4 since Saturday. Can PMS seriously start a full 8 days in advance?

I'm getting set for my Vegas trip. I only have a couple hours in the evening over the next couple of days to do a TON of stuff....so I'm jumping the gun on the packing thing, which is soooooo not like me! Because of my flight time, I'm going to have to go to bed at an absolutely insanely early hour on Wednesday.

Yesterday I spent $8 to save $30...I bought a little $8 set of empty containers to put my "liquid" items in so that I can pack everything one needs for a 5 day trip into a stupid Ziploc bag so I can put my suitcase through as a carry on and save the absolutely ridiculous luggage fees. That whole luggage fee thing torks me like NOBODY'S business! The first piece should be figured into the cost of the ticket...PERIOD! I can see starting the charges at a second piece, but a first??? And if you want to get me started on a freakin rant...let's talk about the $5/per day "phone access fee" you are forced to pay in Las Vegas hotels. Again...that should be built into the cost of the room. If you are going to call it out separately, then it better dang-well be optional (which it's not) because I have no intention of using the room phone for the 5 days I'm there! I have a cell phone...I haven't used a hotel phone in 10 years! They could take it out of my room for all I care...why do I have to pay $5 a day for it? Are you going to charge me $5 a day for the stupid chair and ottoman that's in there that I won't use either? A "furniture access" fee if you will? You offer a room...you charge a price for that room...if you need extra money for the freakin phone, then up the price of the freakin room.

Wow...I do sound hostile don't I. I think I answered my own PMS question. LMAO!!!

I'm very fortunate that as a disabled person, I get to board early...so I won't have to fight for space in the overhead compartment for my carry-on...but I can imagine that this policy change has made a TON of people do what I'm doing, trying to carry everything on board instead of paying the extra fees. I bet it becomes a battle for space.

In my never-ending munchiness friday night, I tried something new that didn't turn out quite as planned, but worth trying again. I had a package of large pepperonis that I separated and baked about 9 of them on a baking sheet, attempting to get them crispy. They never did...but maybe I should try broiling next time? Anyway...I then put a smidge of pizza sauce on each one and then a pinch of mozzarella and parm to make little mini pizzas. They were quite tasty...I'd do this again. I might even top with a piece of Canadian bacon and a sausage crumble next time. If I could get them crispy, I think these would make fun party appetizers...but as they were I had to eat them with a knife and fork.

Friday, May 1, 2009

LC Day 61...20 pounds down!

Ok...my official friday weigh in has me at 272...that's down 1.4 from last week. My ankles are a little puffy today...could it POSSIBLY be that I'm already heading into my monthly cycle 2 week span of weight nightmare? Crimony! Where does the time go??? I could SWEAR I just finished this. At least I know it's not bad food choices...that much I'm sure. So I'll just roll with the punches.

Oh...and that puts me at a net loss of precisely TWENTY POUNDS down since I started plan! 22 from my highest recorded weight. Man it's going slow this time...but it feels so right that I'm not complaining...too much.

With the weekend coming up...and an impending vacation...I have some fridge cleaning to do...and by cleaning, I mean eating what I have before I leave. I have a container of alfredo sauce and a container of pizza sauce and a bunch of shredded cheese that probably needs to be consumed before thursday. Crap! LMAO...what can I freeze? I'm not going to grocery shop between now and when I get back...force myself to eat what I have on hand (which is plenty!)...and save some money for the slot machines! Yes...I have produce. I will make grocery shop rule exceptions should I need more.

I am meeting with a personal trainer tonight...one of those "free" deals you get when you sign up with a mega gym. If I like her, I'll buy some training from her...but she's gotta really show that she understands what I'm looking for...which is a custom program that really takes into account my personal limitations. I've always wanted a "Jillian Michaels" type trainer who would push me...but push me on things I'm actually capable of doing...jogging on the treadmill aint gonna happen. (Yet...I still have high hopes that I will "someday") I'm looking forward to it but hoping it's not "cheap" since it's one of the "free" sessions.

Food today is a quickie scramble for breakfast (my new tip...use a Pampered Chef prep bowl (which is a nice size ramekin with a lid), one egg scrambled with a smidge of cream, a pinch of sausage (I keep some in my freezer) and a pinch of cheese. Take it to work, give it a shake, pop it in the microwave for 45 seconds (be careful cuz the egg puffs up big time) and viola! Fresh scramble! Lunch is the end of my leftover taco salad, snacks are STILL celery and cream cheese cuz I haven't eaten much of them the last two days...and dinner...clearly will be something pizza sauce or alfredo related. LOL...maybe chicken with broccoli and alfredo sauce? We'll see. Hmmm...I COULD do a white sauce chicken pizza with garlic and green onions. OMG...I think I just drooled on the keyboard. I have leftover frozen cauliflower crusts!!!!!