Medical Self-Righteousness

This new doctor can Suck it!

Ok...yes...that’s a little harsh.

I saw a new doctor yesterday and left there feeling belittled. I don’t need that crap from a medical professional. Apparently I have a “list” of issues she referred to, essentially trying to make me look like some kind of hypochondriac. Let’s look at that list and see how bad it really is, shall we?

1. Morbid obesity tops the list. Guess what...that’s been on my file since I was 12...shocker...take a look at me! I'm working on it...and by the way, check my BP and blood panel...I'm doing ok for a fat chick.
2. Aortic Coarctation, repaired May 2002...yeah...that’s a birth defect. I didn’t exactly trump that up for sympathy votes. It had to be fixed or I was gonna die.
3. Incomplete Spinal Cord Injury May 2002....I suffered from the SCI during the surgery to fix my heart. Wasn’t in my master plan lady...sorta wish it never happened.
4. Edema in legs...muscles in my legs don’t work like the average person, so fluid tends to pool in my ankles...welcome to SCI. Maybe you should learn a little something about it...there are complicating factors, ya know?
5. Hip pain...7 years after learning to walk again, I walk in an unnatural way and consistently throw my hip out of alignment...or maybe you didn’t notice I’m disabled.
6. Frequent falls causing bruising and hip pain...you try living without adductors and hamstrings. Falling in the splits on slippery surfaces is painful and embarrassing. Sometimes the pain requires medication. Since I only get 4 scrips for 12 vicodin a year, I highly doubt there is a dependency issue.
7. Restless leg syndrome...started in the hospital after the SCI...Coincidence?
8. Depression in November 2002...yeah...in March my mom died after a horrific battle with cancer, in April I was diagnosed with a fatal heart defect, which I promptly had repaired in May only to become paralyzed from the waist down as a result, lived in a hospital for 2 months with a staff that treated me like a burden (some, not all) and then with my dad having people take care of me and having no freedom, only to finally move home in September with my "devoted" boyfriend of 4 years, who left me the next day for a woman he met on the internet in another country. You MIGHT have a little depression too after dealing with all of that between February and September. Bite me.
9. Abnormal cardiac rhythms...sorry for coomplaining when my heart stopped...my bad.
10. Miscarriage August 2008...seriously, would have preferred to not miscarry. Thanks for bringing it up. I supposed that’s my fault now?
11. Strep throat April and December 2008
12. Flu February 2008

The only thing on that list that I think she can even REMOTELY...and it is REMOTE...call out as an issue is the freakin flu, which I had ONE time, and only went to the doctor after 5 days of coughing and exhaustion just to see if they had anything they could give me to calm the cough as tussin wasn’t doing squat. WTH? You know , if you nix number 3, you pretty much wouldn’t have 4 through 8....don’t fucking belittle me, I didn’t ask for the SCI and I’m dealing with it pretty damn well, all things considered. With ALL of that, I take 3 daily perscriptions...a water pill for the edema, a supplement for the potassium loss caused by the water pill, and Ambien for the RLS. I'm not exactly a pill popper.

I won’t be seeing this doctor again...ever.